Monday, January 31, 2011
@the Cross roads
Yesterday
January 30, 2011
Yesterday was quite interesting, in that, I had the revelation while on the beat distributing my newsletter -something the Lord awarded me; a zeal for the written word and the capacity to deliver it via aide of my way -out-of-date (but God bless it any way) refurbished Dell laptop and just enough ink to polish off a hard copy of what the Lord had downloaded in my spirit. Something about the presidential address - now history - Obama and the State of The Union and a prayer for a nation. That I am not taking back. A disclaimer I now insert virtually that I sincerely mean every thing that I said on the newsletter. Especially the Scripture in the news (Acts 2:38.)
At first that is what I thought this whole thing was all about but being a child of God, the Holy Ghost has pricked me in my heaart. I can not quench the Holy Spirit. The banner on top of the newsletter hails the passage of scripture "Seek ye first the Kingdom and all of His righteousness," Matthew 6:33.
Okay, honestly (albeit in my flesh) I see that now but while I was out on the street giving these letters out, the Spirit of the Lord came to me and said "Jessica what are you doing this for?"
"So what Salli Mae is looking for you."
"This really is not about my kingdom now is it?"
Now you know flesh and blood did not reveal this unto me. I tell you the Truth! It was the Holy Ghost within me in coming to myself now I can see.
If and when people - should they take me seriously enough and actually seek out the blogspot - they will see that I am endeavoring to rally awareness about my own personal life issues and masquerading as if I care about their souls in order to do it. In recieving the rebuke and chastening of the Lord, I had to be quiet and ask the Lord's forgiveness for He is right. I actually feel silly now letting the enemy turn me out yet again.
OMG! What the heck I must have been out of mind! But thank the good Lord for restoring me to my rightful position. A few days ago I posted on my FB page under notes a personal life issue cliff note re: The right answer.
This message had to do with something my sister asked me and my answer to it. In it, I declared that I was here to do the will of the Father who had sent me.
Now I can see so clearly now that the will of the Father is not to get my student loans forgiven by way of a obscure blog posting. Morevoer, I truly believe and receive the report of the Lord. For it truly is all my salvation. That said, then I can not make light of the entire portion and what it says fully, the part about how ...everything we have need of shall be added unto me."
I will be seeking the will of the Father for real and stop stressing about my own short comings giving heed to the hinderances, what have you. That's the same song the rest of the world is strumming; how they can't get out of debt; etc., etc., etc.
My issue tobe candid with you is entirely of a different origin altogether that has to do with my family legacy and inheritance in the Lord, etc., x,y,z. A story for a paper back novel type of explanation or at least another blogsite heading i.e. Keeping Daddy by thine right hand. I believe I see a resurrection on the horizon of my own life failings beauty for ashes fresh anointing.
Well...but I'm posting this because it is apropriate that I do so. I'm either a trickster like Jacob or at the end of myself about to become Israel the beloved. So now I repent, eat some humble pie and ask the Lord first for forgiveness that He shall heal my land. And now I ask for forgiveness to any and all of those who visit this blogsite and especially those who recieve my the physical newsletter entitled God's Eyes On January 23-31 edition.
The title of this blogspot, "foodstampzombies" is not to offend anyone (no, that is not my intention at all.) However it is a true sentiment of what the Lord showed me in the Spirit realm. What I desire to do is provoke and evoke a movement against the oppression that is so prevelant and I see it everywhere I look. As a woman of God if the Spirit is upon me i.e. Isaiah 61:2 ..."To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,..."
Then we are supposed to be about restoring the wastelands and building up the walls of Jerusalem having a mind to work like they did in Nehemiah, th humble cup bearer. People may not get where I am coming from so again I would like to apologize to any one who thought I was coming across in a scornful manner. I do however pray that we do wake up and see that our help does not come from the government but our salvation is found in the Holy Bible by faith in the Lord and working out our own soul's salvation by faith engaged by the Word of God with fear and tremble. The spirit of the Lord it is obvious shall direct our paths if we commit our way unto Him. Even so He shall give us all the directive we need. Amen.
Earnestly Posting.
Still the keeping daddy lady (By thine right hand)
Something tells me that Salli Mae shall not be looking for me much longer. Cause I'm prophesying that these bones shall live and not die in the valley of dry bones; in the muck and the mire. Amen.
(Hey I know I can not be the only one. How many of us have been hoodwinked by the menacing atempts of the enemy to get us off the beaten path and out side of the hedge the perfect of will of God. I liked to know your story. Cause I know I can't be the only one.)
January 30, 2011
Yesterday was quite interesting, in that, I had the revelation while on the beat distributing my newsletter -something the Lord awarded me; a zeal for the written word and the capacity to deliver it via aide of my way -out-of-date (but God bless it any way) refurbished Dell laptop and just enough ink to polish off a hard copy of what the Lord had downloaded in my spirit. Something about the presidential address - now history - Obama and the State of The Union and a prayer for a nation. That I am not taking back. A disclaimer I now insert virtually that I sincerely mean every thing that I said on the newsletter. Especially the Scripture in the news (Acts 2:38.)
At first that is what I thought this whole thing was all about but being a child of God, the Holy Ghost has pricked me in my heaart. I can not quench the Holy Spirit. The banner on top of the newsletter hails the passage of scripture "Seek ye first the Kingdom and all of His righteousness," Matthew 6:33.
Okay, honestly (albeit in my flesh) I see that now but while I was out on the street giving these letters out, the Spirit of the Lord came to me and said "Jessica what are you doing this for?"
"So what Salli Mae is looking for you."
"This really is not about my kingdom now is it?"
Now you know flesh and blood did not reveal this unto me. I tell you the Truth! It was the Holy Ghost within me in coming to myself now I can see.
If and when people - should they take me seriously enough and actually seek out the blogspot - they will see that I am endeavoring to rally awareness about my own personal life issues and masquerading as if I care about their souls in order to do it. In recieving the rebuke and chastening of the Lord, I had to be quiet and ask the Lord's forgiveness for He is right. I actually feel silly now letting the enemy turn me out yet again.
OMG! What the heck I must have been out of mind! But thank the good Lord for restoring me to my rightful position. A few days ago I posted on my FB page under notes a personal life issue cliff note re: The right answer.
This message had to do with something my sister asked me and my answer to it. In it, I declared that I was here to do the will of the Father who had sent me.
Now I can see so clearly now that the will of the Father is not to get my student loans forgiven by way of a obscure blog posting. Morevoer, I truly believe and receive the report of the Lord. For it truly is all my salvation. That said, then I can not make light of the entire portion and what it says fully, the part about how ...everything we have need of shall be added unto me."
I will be seeking the will of the Father for real and stop stressing about my own short comings giving heed to the hinderances, what have you. That's the same song the rest of the world is strumming; how they can't get out of debt; etc., etc., etc.
My issue tobe candid with you is entirely of a different origin altogether that has to do with my family legacy and inheritance in the Lord, etc., x,y,z. A story for a paper back novel type of explanation or at least another blogsite heading i.e. Keeping Daddy by thine right hand. I believe I see a resurrection on the horizon of my own life failings beauty for ashes fresh anointing.
Well...but I'm posting this because it is apropriate that I do so. I'm either a trickster like Jacob or at the end of myself about to become Israel the beloved. So now I repent, eat some humble pie and ask the Lord first for forgiveness that He shall heal my land. And now I ask for forgiveness to any and all of those who visit this blogsite and especially those who recieve my the physical newsletter entitled God's Eyes On January 23-31 edition.
The title of this blogspot, "foodstampzombies" is not to offend anyone (no, that is not my intention at all.) However it is a true sentiment of what the Lord showed me in the Spirit realm. What I desire to do is provoke and evoke a movement against the oppression that is so prevelant and I see it everywhere I look. As a woman of God if the Spirit is upon me i.e. Isaiah 61:2 ..."To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,..."
Then we are supposed to be about restoring the wastelands and building up the walls of Jerusalem having a mind to work like they did in Nehemiah, th humble cup bearer. People may not get where I am coming from so again I would like to apologize to any one who thought I was coming across in a scornful manner. I do however pray that we do wake up and see that our help does not come from the government but our salvation is found in the Holy Bible by faith in the Lord and working out our own soul's salvation by faith engaged by the Word of God with fear and tremble. The spirit of the Lord it is obvious shall direct our paths if we commit our way unto Him. Even so He shall give us all the directive we need. Amen.
Earnestly Posting.
Still the keeping daddy lady (By thine right hand)
Something tells me that Salli Mae shall not be looking for me much longer. Cause I'm prophesying that these bones shall live and not die in the valley of dry bones; in the muck and the mire. Amen.
(Hey I know I can not be the only one. How many of us have been hoodwinked by the menacing atempts of the enemy to get us off the beaten path and out side of the hedge the perfect of will of God. I liked to know your story. Cause I know I can't be the only one.)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Repost of the initial thought/idea/order Greetings
Greetings and praise the Lord to everyone here in cyberland. This is a reposting of the intial order/thought/idea/concept Help!!!Salli Mae Is Looking 4 me!
There seems to be a misunderstanding:
See Salli Mae my present day stalker of the moment split their books up saling half of their stakes to the US Gov. So looks like there are really two presnt day stockers under the same hub. (If that makes any sense at all.) In short, the real sum owed is around $31,000.00 plus interest everytime I motion for a forebearance and deferrment which takes forever and a day to wit' I only have a specified number of times I can even do that and of course like the genie in the bottle rule I have already used up probably half.
In any event so by the time they recieve my paperwork they start the phone stalking again. So today I'm praying for strength in the form of diligence in doing what I know best and learnign more and more of everyday of my life - seeking ye first the Kingdom of God and all of His righteousness by spreading the good news of the Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ through these humble simply newsletters I just now have gotten up the nerve to distribute throughout my neighborhood for a modest (or not) donation. Had I took a different path in life perhaps maybe I would have been working for Good Morning America as a producer or even the local newspaper here in my home town as a columnist or even a copy-editor. Hey, I'll take what they have. But of course I didn't instead I have this ridiculous deeply creviced checkered past which lead me to the Cross of Jesus Christ looking more like the woman at the well(fare office). But there in is the silver lining, eh?
However the good news is that my God is still on the Throne and that I am saved from my past. I have something I didn't have before - boundaries. And an initiative - Welcome to the age of Re-Invention and searching one's true purpose out. Hey they may have my credit in a bind but they don't have my soul.
See, I know the answer now to the riddle: Why the caged bird sings? It's because her spirit is not bound. Hallelujah baby and Amen to that.
Q: what is it that the Lord has put on your heart to do that you been hard pressed to deliver perplexed how to go through the eye of the needle perhaps in being born-again? Let's start a conversation. (Fellowshipping has to do with relationships how God makes His burdens easier and the yokes of life light sojourning through til the day of Jesus Christ.)
Working out my own soul's salvation with fear and tremble
Still keeping daddy lady
Feeling a whole lot like the woman at the well today
Revelation 1. + "Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized everyone of you in thename of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost." Acts 2:38
Revelation 2. + "Jesus answered and said unto her, "If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, give me to drink: thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water." John 4:10
There seems to be a misunderstanding:
See Salli Mae my present day stalker of the moment split their books up saling half of their stakes to the US Gov. So looks like there are really two presnt day stockers under the same hub. (If that makes any sense at all.) In short, the real sum owed is around $31,000.00 plus interest everytime I motion for a forebearance and deferrment which takes forever and a day to wit' I only have a specified number of times I can even do that and of course like the genie in the bottle rule I have already used up probably half.
In any event so by the time they recieve my paperwork they start the phone stalking again. So today I'm praying for strength in the form of diligence in doing what I know best and learnign more and more of everyday of my life - seeking ye first the Kingdom of God and all of His righteousness by spreading the good news of the Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ through these humble simply newsletters I just now have gotten up the nerve to distribute throughout my neighborhood for a modest (or not) donation. Had I took a different path in life perhaps maybe I would have been working for Good Morning America as a producer or even the local newspaper here in my home town as a columnist or even a copy-editor. Hey, I'll take what they have. But of course I didn't instead I have this ridiculous deeply creviced checkered past which lead me to the Cross of Jesus Christ looking more like the woman at the well(fare office). But there in is the silver lining, eh?
However the good news is that my God is still on the Throne and that I am saved from my past. I have something I didn't have before - boundaries. And an initiative - Welcome to the age of Re-Invention and searching one's true purpose out. Hey they may have my credit in a bind but they don't have my soul.
See, I know the answer now to the riddle: Why the caged bird sings? It's because her spirit is not bound. Hallelujah baby and Amen to that.
Q: what is it that the Lord has put on your heart to do that you been hard pressed to deliver perplexed how to go through the eye of the needle perhaps in being born-again? Let's start a conversation. (Fellowshipping has to do with relationships how God makes His burdens easier and the yokes of life light sojourning through til the day of Jesus Christ.)
Working out my own soul's salvation with fear and tremble
Still keeping daddy lady
Feeling a whole lot like the woman at the well today
Revelation 1. + "Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized everyone of you in thename of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost." Acts 2:38
Revelation 2. + "Jesus answered and said unto her, "If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, give me to drink: thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water." John 4:10
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Operation Working Out my Own Soul Salvation with Fear and Tremble
OMG since last I touched base it was a little before Christmas time and I was all psyched about going viral with my latest inspired idea, Help!!!! Salli Mae is Looking 4 Me! prompted by the Holy Ghost of course for it Was the Spirit that gave me the inspiration. Hence the green light to proceed but something happened - I began rationalizing and got cold feet and of course the Holy Ghost got grieved and went and found a better specimen for the assignment. (By the way has anyone heard from Ted Williams since his being discovered?)
So here I am endeavoring to walk on the water again prompted to get out of the boat. I know the Lord has no respect of persons. Of course my delimna has only worsened --the stakes are raised 100%.
Man this must be like how Jonah felt when he tried to avoid the assignment the Lord gave him.
Please Lord don't let me get gobbled up by some huge fish financial institution with henchmen. Okay so I'm walking on the waves already like right now I'm getting out of the boat Jesus please save me Save me.
Because my Salli Mae loan that was in forbearance at the time I initialized this blog is now truly coming due. The deferment clause is about to expire, such beaucratic you know what. Whatever.
Maybe I will begin a petition requesting that the entire thing be forgiven considering the circumstances - an act of God is what happened in the first place behind my taking a complete "W" from a program that I would have completed (and one year shy of grad might I add) had the Lord not sat me down and presented the opportunity to care for my biological daddy. Well, I now plead the blood and Romans 8:28.
Looks like the winepress is where I belong less the Lord Almighty destroys the entire vineyard. Gotta go through - like the rabbit hole it is the only way out. Amen.
But hey may as well share some splices of life and even a few flash backs of Christmas / the best of (20)10' in the process - just to keep you peeked as to what is going to happen next.
Binding the Oppression
(in Jesus name)
Jessica Mae
The Keeping Daddy Lady
Amen
So here I am endeavoring to walk on the water again prompted to get out of the boat. I know the Lord has no respect of persons. Of course my delimna has only worsened --the stakes are raised 100%.
Man this must be like how Jonah felt when he tried to avoid the assignment the Lord gave him.
Please Lord don't let me get gobbled up by some huge fish financial institution with henchmen. Okay so I'm walking on the waves already like right now I'm getting out of the boat Jesus please save me Save me.
Because my Salli Mae loan that was in forbearance at the time I initialized this blog is now truly coming due. The deferment clause is about to expire, such beaucratic you know what. Whatever.
Maybe I will begin a petition requesting that the entire thing be forgiven considering the circumstances - an act of God is what happened in the first place behind my taking a complete "W" from a program that I would have completed (and one year shy of grad might I add) had the Lord not sat me down and presented the opportunity to care for my biological daddy. Well, I now plead the blood and Romans 8:28.
Looks like the winepress is where I belong less the Lord Almighty destroys the entire vineyard. Gotta go through - like the rabbit hole it is the only way out. Amen.
But hey may as well share some splices of life and even a few flash backs of Christmas / the best of (20)10' in the process - just to keep you peeked as to what is going to happen next.
Binding the Oppression
(in Jesus name)
Jessica Mae
The Keeping Daddy Lady
Amen
Saturday, December 11, 2010
The Lord's Prayer
RE: Supplication _ My Favorite Part
..."Forgive us our debts as we forgive those who trespass against us." Amen.
(A window into my soul)
Hi, my name is Jessica Richardson_ Hall/ Richardson_Hall status It's complicated if u followed me from the FB you already know my handle. Nevermind the details but something tells me they will eventually surface. Transparency is the key if anyone is to believe me. So anyhoo here goes everything.
I'm my biological daddy's primary caregiver by election/divine selection seeking to work out my own soul's salvation with much fear and trembling. See what happened was... one day, I was minding my own merry business endeavoring an Associates in courtroom stenography three years in and one year away from obtaining my degree and keeping daddy, this divinely orchestrated circumstance happens to me.
No pun intended...
However, that said, I also know that God will never force His will on us, therefore I chose to in that hour to deny myself, pick up my Cross which consisted of my three babes and my newest edition - my 97 year of age daddy and follow the Spirit of the Lord from my then place of residency sunny Florida to brave the great beyond back to the Buckeye State of which is where I was born so no worries there. I actually was glad to come back to the Big "O".
Admittedly, I was away for way too long. Almost biblical and pretty epic being off the set for 20 years. And all of sudden, out of the cosmos, a south wind blows me in with keeping daddy on my hip. A definitive life choice resulting in the burnt offering of fasting from my degree or the study thereof for a season or two now three. Taking a "W" in lieu of watching my daddy die like a fish out of water or as he lamented in anguish, "out of the will of God."
God forbid, I dare set back and let him think he had been forsaken by a God that promised us in His word that He would never leave any of us nor forsake us. So hightailing it back to Ohio where he could at least stay alive for the intended measure of the days the Lord predestined was a no-brainer. And if i had to do it all over again, of course love always conquers all; it alwasy wins. I have no regrets only these blasted neatly addressed packages via snail mail from
Salli Mae Department of Education looking for me saying, hey we want our dough due.
And until the Government implements a special clause for people who have been faced with a like issue or similar fate of having to care for their elderly parents while in the middle of pursuing their life ambitions, this is my proposed plan:
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS WISHLIST IS FOR
MY STUDENT LOANS TO BE FORGIVEN (AND/OR PAID).
Hence, my goal is to raise a sum of $21,000.00 by voluntary donations by those who can relate.
Hey, it's either this or be content to be enslaved by the fearmonger of debt netting no peace at the end of the day only worry and anxiety. Not the reward of the Lord. Besides the Word of the Lord does admonish us to ask, seek and knock til we have the very thing we have need of --in my case that is to be free of the impending doomsayer, SALLIMAE.
Having uprooted my entire life for the sake of another's... well, that has it's own reward but in the practical turn of events, my father is 97 years young and well, I understand that this too shall pass but unfortuantely if I don't use some wisdom though my motive was pure in taking care of him, the enemy still would love to make a reproach out of my household for simply honoring a profound truth; Honour thy father and mother so that your days are long upon the earth for this is the first commandment with promise.
Additionally, all the Lord ask is that we present to him an offering --a seed of faith that is able to remove a mountain range - so this is my best seed - the idea itself looking unto the Christ who is the author and the finisher of my faith. He is able to bring it to pass. Raising $21,000.00 to help me clear my student loans so I can start a fresh whenever it is the Lord so desires to bring his servant home, my bio dad is not so far- fetched. If anything it shows initiative; evidence that though I am perplexed I am not crushed yielding hope and hope does not disapoint us.
In the interim, I now pledge to stay joyful in the struggle fighting the good fight of faith and laying hold onto eternal life by delivering up-to-the minute progress reports and simply fun and interesting news you can use (or not) as long as this blog has a pulse. Amen.
Guess you can tell,... yes, I am a Christian. Saved and Born Again.
(Cause you must be born-again).
Pentecost is for the Holy Ghost ushering in.
Merry Christmas.
Hallelujah and Amen.
Stay encouraged and be blessed to all who even come here to see why the heck Salli Mae is looking for me.
Thanking the Lord - the Father of Spirits for the gifts of hope, faith, love and curiosity.
Posting daily committed to the goal of raising $21,000.00 or at least help me pay it off - hey maybe they will take a settlement offer like the principle minus the interest. I'm open to explore the possiblities as long as it does not compromise my belief system. Amen.
And that can be paid in increments or one lump sum via paypal. Thank you very much for caring to at least read this much, for your consideration and even pondering the thought of what the heck is http://www.foodstampzombies.com/ ?
May God bless you.
Sincerely Oh no she didn't oh yes I did!
Jessi Richardson-Hall Richardson-Hall
The Keeping Daddy Girl
Help!!!SalliMae Is Looking For Me
I'm not complaining I'm just explaining ...
See what happened was ...
In permitting my father to come in to our household so too came the whirlwind uprooting me from my own earthly ambitions.
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